Silent Pleas Fall on Deaf Ears or Do They?
I have to admit I'm feeling a little bit of writer's block tonight maybe due to the fact that it was gorgeous outside today and I just want to soak it up a little bit longer. Hmm, I think that was a lie, I think my writer's block comes from a fear of opening up. A fear of being exposed, a fear of telling too much to the wrong people at the wrong time. Or maybe the right people at the right time. I fear a lot, maybe we all do. Fear is a great motivator, it's also a great excuse to keep us from moving out of our comfort zones. Fear, yeah it is a four letter word, funny huh? So what am I afraid of? Well, it would be silly if I told you all. That would ruin the purpose of me writing this. Truth is, I'm not really sure. I'm probably afraid of a lot of things. Not living up to the image of myself that I have so ingrained in my head. Not becoming the person I want to be, the person others want me to be. Never making it, whatever "it" really is. Or letting down the people I love. Strap that all on my back and I have a huge cross to carry, bigger than I can manage at times. So what I do, well I live, that's all I really can do. That's all any of us can do really. I've started to open up to the fear inside of me right now and hopefully someday I can completely open that door. But for right now I'll just work on breaking the writer's block and see what comes out when I do, seems like I managed to muster up some courage and knock out something right here, I'm satisfied, anybody else?
2 comments:
Wow. This is what you come up with when you have writer's block? Well, you used a very good tool. Write about the block when nothing else comes to mind. Look what we learned when you did that!
Yes, we all have fears. Sometimes, well most of the time, we are afraid to admit it to ourselves; much less to someone else. As a result, we end up feeling alone. Every time a person with the courage to say it out loud does so, it helps the rest of us to face our own fears(at least a little).
I agree, that all we can do is live. I like that attitude. I think that really living confronts those fears.
I hope you don't mind my going on about this, but you got me thinking.
I like when my writing makes people think, it makes me feel as if I've written something worth reading.
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